rising, falling, sweeping in over
my dry beaches, rushing out into
my far reaches…
and your arms were all about me
like spring clouds soft and grey
and fat with rain milked from
fountains of the morning dew.
I woke, and there was nothing,
nothing but you…you in my heart,
in my thoughts, you like tides
in my veins.
Here’s what clashes inside me,
like tides and beaches under skies,
clanging loud and clear against crags
midst thunder and silky lightening:
I used to have everything anyone said
was required to be happy and content and yet
I was in despair
for there was nothing of me inside and yet
somehow I was there,
a mute witness to the horror of myself and full
of one long interminable silent scream…
And now? Now I have lost it all
(except you, dearest one)
and yet gained myself within
and thus find joy unspeakable
midst this storm of tears,
clash of times and loss
of all (even my fears)
and utter failure…
Now I sit in deserts dry
(no oasis in this barren land,
that oasis is become me),
I sit still midst salt and sand
and snakes and smile, because I am
become a meadow here inside,
and poppies dance beneath the breeze
and sway in purple twilight ways,
in this velvet twilight, mmmmm
this twilight in lavender
we always want to see what is hidden by what we see.
There is an interest in that which is hidden
and which the visible does not show us.
This interest can take the form
of a quite intense feeling, a sort of conflict, one might say,
between the visible that is hidden and the visible that is present.”
| — | René Magritte, speaking about his piece, “The Son of Man” |
Charissa's Grace Notes 
You are indeed an oasis in a barren (albeit virtual) land. And an inspiration for us all to be. xxx
and since you look closely…did you notice the waves coming in, going out…stanza by stanza and in stanzas as well?? 😉
Sorry…hadda point that out cus likely no one would notice the mechanics of that.
*Charissa indulges a minor sin of preening*
I can see it now, but after a full day’s manual labour you’ll have to forgive my dull instincts… xxx
Giggles!! What, you reading the manuals for once????? LOL!
“I used to have everything anyone said
was required to be happy and content and yet
I was in despair
for there was nothing of me inside and yet
somehow I was there,”
*sharp inhale*
(you left off the next line, that really sets that phrase in perspective)
… “a mute witness to the horror of myself and full
of one long interminable silent scream…” …
the scream has ceased, and in my heart there rings a melody
and the rest of the poem is yes. is amen.
I take for myself the Name “Oasis”.
I name Myself “Meadow” inside.
This is an existential action of tremendous significance to me.
I wonder if you thought much about the quote, what it says, why I chose it? How it interprets what I wrote?
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