If Only…
Fated words, uttered loud and forceful
(expletives deleted) with hot breath fast and panicked.
If only…
*sigh*
if only…
those words have marched in lock step
with this silly goose so desperate to be a swan
goose stepping right along with the best
of the fuhrer’s furor-troops and shock tropes.
my friend spoke of these, and sentences that
jail themselves with these bars “if only”.
well, I “if only”-ed myself into Horner’s Corner
and stuck in a thumb to pull out
if only i had not said that
if only i had thought before i moved
if only i was smaller
if only i was quieter
if only my body…yeah.
that.
if only the blood didn’t come out of the wounds
if only…
if only…
(i whisper this, shame steals my voice but not the evil thought)
if only i had never been…
Those are my “if only”s.
So, how to go on to “yet shall I”
“yet shall I praise Them”
“yet shall I lift my eyes up to the mountains, from whence shall my help come”
“yet shall I bow”
“yet shall I breathe”
“yet shall I hope”
“yet shall I say sorry until the word is a worn out Hush Puppy”
“and yet shall I love, shall I love, shall I love thru it all”
This is very moving. Love really is the answer, isn’t it?
The one and only.
Love loses every battle in order to win the war.
💗
“So, how to go on to “yet shall I”
One step ahead.
One heartbeat forward.
ohhhh…the voice of experience and sharing hard won wisdom.
*Charissa puts these gems in her forever treasure box*
Oh my dear friend…how you know the things you know…if only we lived in the same neighborhood ❤️❤️
The heart knows what it knows… And THAT, dear Lil Mama, is our neighborhood! ❤
You are so right, so right ❤️
I just had to come back and read this again. Sorry I haven’t been around much…doing a lot of private writing ❤