Ima go ahead now,
pick up glowy embers
radiant and stinky
with the fires of days
long past…pick them up
with new hands and tender
soft flesh that has never
known shackles and chains,
calluses, rough edges.
Don’t gasp, they can’t hurt me!
I’m alive now, and wreathed
in grace and I’m shrouded
in mysteries of mercy
falling on the hungry
hard flames of agony.
See? There they are…
the remnants of him,
gone at last, and frankly
I don’t miss him at all,
in the slightest, and really
all I had in common
with him was this body,
“Guffaw of the Universe”,
but not him, nothing
in common with him…well
except air, we both breathe
air…well, I breathe air, but
he doesn’t anymore…breathe.
And I don’t miss him.
Charissa's Grace Notes 
Reblogged this on Cage-Free Christian and commented:
Is it any wonder I relate to Charissa’s awakening and transition so hard? I (and quite possibly one or more of my children) would have died had she not appeared at the exact moment everything I’d depended on as “love” went malignant. There are 150 or so people I have surgically removed from my life who would have been perfectly OK with and even preferred that rather than acknowledge and live in reality (the vast majority of them “Christian” Trump supporters). I don’t miss them. I don’t miss him – any more than one would miss cancer once in remission. I surely have missed me. 27 years is a long time to be separated, dissociated, dismembered, disconnected from love. Feeling weak and disoriented as one does waking from a fever dream, but I am awake and on the mend and relieved to be so.
I don’t know that I will ever be able to tell you of the snik into place that happened when I first “met” you…it was simply meaning emerging at last, bulling its way forward from unknowing…saying this is why the what happened!!
Fiercely glad that you went Phoenix!!!
I am your true and real friend, for always…born from Mama’s side as were you, and thus born of Her bone…
Let the accusers cut themselves off, in true Pauline Galatians fashion!! I will simply be your friend, harmless but “not safe”
❤