“I am so sorry to all the people I hurt while I was hurting.”
I saw this quote online this morning. It captures my feelings about that long, long past, much of which I am only dimly aware of having lived, but more like an observer than a participant.
Certain parameters have been laid out…and sadly those preclude forgiveness. Apparently, there really is more than one “unforgivable sin” (and really, each human being sorta gets to decide what sin is forgivable and what sin is not, no?).
But the truly fine thing about being a human being? The power of understanding embodied in choice and become action.
And I am…so sorrowful that the hurt that I was in…that I was in my “not-being” resulted in hurt to others. And yet there is nothing to be done about the then, and the to come has not yet arrived.
There is just the now…finally and at last the now…and I am in it.