It was a bird’s eye view,
a bride’s eye view,
all in white inside those
clean inviting borders
and me suspended overhead
and anxious in the tale told below.
I could see the tracks I left
there in your field, small
hot holes in the icy frosting
so beautiful, or buttons black
against that argent wedding cloth
in the pristine cold and dusky dim dark.
I felt shame in their
crooked, casual assumption
that anywhere inside the fence
was safe and I could wander freely.
I saw that my crooked beadwork
detracted from your day’s pure garment.
But that is why I am here,
whispering down your chimney
in the voice of the wistful winter winds,
soft, mellow, sorrowful and sheepish
and urgent too! Cus I never meant anything
but a blessing and admiration.
I wanted you to know…
I walked backwards tonite
in my snowshoes and those
actually worn backwards
and as I stepped into the telling tracks
one by one
they filled themselves in
and I took my birch branch
and waved it gently
across the surface
and thus erase any trace
that I had ever been there.
I shinnied over the fence
and up the roof, and I think
Ima stay here awhile, in this nook
on your roof next to your chimney
where the faint heat speaks of warmth
below and laughs within and a time and place
where all are home and all is well again.
I’m very slow getting here to read this. It feels like this was eons ago. Your intent was sincere and true- not coming from a deceitful or hurtful place.
Yeaaahhh… Well, the person to whom I wrote it? Either didn’t bother to read it, or didn’t care, or both.
Regardless… A decent poem rose out of the event.
Sissa… I think even a cursory glance at GN would show that I need no other person’s words to bolster my own.
Yeah. It hurt… Both that it was even a thing, and that I had not been aware enuff to figure out the acceptable way.